Wednesday, July 21, 2010

the test

The passports have come back, and finally we can make plans. Or rather finalize plans. It's too late now for the July target, so we had to resort to plan B: September.

I should have taken this step years ago, but I was too chicken to do it. I was aware that this is inevitable, that I would really have to go through with this at one time in order for my plans to work out. I can't quite explain why I kept postponing it, except to honestly say that I was scared of taking the test. This is not like me at all, I have faced tests head on for as long as I can remember, prepared or not prepared. For some reason, I felt that the timing wasn't right, and I kept holding back.

So now, I'm ready to finally take the exam. Or maybe I just ran out of reasons for not doing so. Psyched and finally able to study (not as much as I wanted to, but then again I have never been able to prepare for any exam as much as I wanted to), I was set to take the bridging course in July and the exam on September.

Lo and behold, something (someone?) told me this wasn't to be. I'd like to think of it as divine intervention. My visa application got delayed and it was only yesterday that I finally got my visa. Now it's too late to get into the July program, so everything's moved to September.

So, it's hitting the books for me. More work. More time to prepare. Unless something else happens between now and September, it's definite that I'll be facing one of the biggest tests in my life at the last quarter of this year.

2 comments:

Bonedoc said...

hmm..preparing for a diaspora?Maybe there's some not so obvious reason for the delay...

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AnaKaT said...

@bonedoc: yeah, my thoughts exactly! I'm still trying to figure out if this is a "sign" or just a test to see just how determined I am